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hafizah 300989 just average girl next door and extremely petite. don't ever make me mad because trust me,you won't like it. and that is all you need to know. click here for great bargains! friendster
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
i've been having dreams lately and weird thing is,it's all related to travelling. a few nights ago,i dreamt that me and dearest got free tickets to Hong Kong.haha! i have no idea why HK but yeah.we didn't know what to do on that day,like always coz our dates are usually unplanned and we only decide where to go when we meet each other then i randomly said to him "eh why not we go Hong Kong to shop just for a day?" HAHA WTF. we rushed to get on board only to find out that we missed our flight.i suggested, "why not we wait for the next flight?" when he checked the next flight it was at 9 plus and he said to me i can't be home late.haha call it bizarre because out of nowhere i had free tickets to hong kong and not only that,eventhough we missed our flight and the tickets weren't valid anymore,i still suggested to wait for the next one which means i was willing to pay just for a day in HK.haha stupid.and why would dearest say to me i can't be home late? coz it's not as if i can reach home on time if i really happen to go to HK in the dream.super weird.plus the thought of travelling to HK never come across my mind in real life.yes things are cheap there and everything but it's just not my cup of tea. yeah it's just a dream.dreams are meant to be funny and unpredictable.anyways i can't recall what happened next. i had another dream,this time my sister was in it.we were gonna board the plane when i asked her "we're going to London right?" my sis was like "err no? we're going KL la". haha.and the next thing i knew,i woke up. speaking of travelling,i miss London alot.sigh.a week there in June 2007 is definitely not enough. some of the things i'd like to do before i die is to visit London again and get an awesome gaze of aurora borealis in Norway a.k.a the northern lights.here are some visuals for those of you who are clueless as to what it is.   is that the most gorgeous thing you've ever seen or what? of course i will want to experience these with none other than dearest if we end up getting married and have enough money,insyallah.and not forgetting backpacking in europe/other continents(which i'm considering) one day! with the girls/friends. this entry is so random. Thursday, March 12, 2009
first and foremost,happy 21 months my dearest sweetheart. thank you for all the joy,laughter and tears that you have brought into my life.yes,tears.tears of joy/sadness it doesnt matter because you're with me through it all.you have helped me in so many ways,i don't know how to thank you enough.you gave me confidence and somehow you always know how to knock some sense into me whenever i start dwelling on things.all the nagging/scolding(except when you go crazy during an argument) you did towards me on some things really paid off. call it tough love,but i appreciate it.i understood it better rather than when he talks to me in a calming tone coz it doesnt get in my head.if only i can apply this with my mother.hmmm. you are better than the best.and even that is an understatement for me.so thank you for being with me.you know you are loved greatly. (: i just came back home from sentosa with the poly friends.we swam at the sea and then played dog and bone.after which we played our own version of netball/captain's ball using a frisbee haha.IT WAS HELL TIRING! like seriously.some more we only had 5 people haha.so all of us ran like some crazy dogs.me and adib were one team and mala,faiza and saihah were at the other.haz was so called the "referee".it was damn exhausting but SUPER AWESOME! i think the laughing made us darn tired instead of the running haha.we showered and all after the games,took pictures then started our barbeque.most of us headed home at about 11. thanks guys for today.it was great (: and guess what? IM AN OFFICIAL TP GRADUAND!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! finally my GPA went up to a 2 point something.alhamdulillah.i've been struggling my ass off to let it touch at least a 2 for the final semester and i'm satisfied with the achievement.yeah may be pathetic to you guys but hell do i look like i give a damn? I'M SO FREAKING HAPPY! that wasn't the only thing that made me overjoyed today.i've got genuine birks now! and it was at 50% off.where can you find real birks at such a good price? better yet,dearest decided to pay half of the discounted price for me coz he knows i needed a pair of sandals since god knows when,which was really nice of him.thank you so much! i love you (: just 1 word to summarise today: AWESOME. i'm hitting the sheets now,so tired! goodnight (: Sunday, March 08, 2009
on friday,adib,nisa,din and me went to henderson waves.nisa drove us there! WOOOO.we kept going round and round coz all of us were not sure exactly where it was but finally we've discovered that it was at mount faber.haha.yes it's a very beautiful place to chill and talk.but kinda scary though coz it was so way up high.plus there were small gaps in between the wooden planks so i was quite nervous walking on it.ya this is coming from a girl who lives on the 20th floor for 11 years already -_- then we took some pictures before we left for home.there was this chinese guy who was very nice to offer us his help in taking photos. i will post them up once i get them. yesterday,adib,ber and me signed up for membership opposite the lan gaming area that we usually play. haha semangat or what.it was damn cheap so why not right?but we ended up not playing coz by then i had to go off for dinner with mom and my sisters and we were having trouble to log in for left 4 dead.the guy couldn't help us too so we gave up.haha. met up with the same clan today.we fetched din from base and we headed to harbourfront for ice kacang/chendol.the guys decided to eat abit before we went to lau pa sat for satay coz they were sort of hungry already.left harbourfront and went to lau pa sat.fitri joined us after awhile.chatted and all before we parted ways with fit and nisa sent us home one by one. adib and me really appreciate that you've been driving us around alot.thanks man (: ohh i had my virgin try behind the wheel for a few minutes.and i got to admit i was damn scared.haha and nisa kept laughing whenever i was startled by the car driving itself on auto.like i said to them,i'm a damn car noob.eventhough i wish to have one of those luxurious cars i see on the road someday. thanks to you guys for the outings the past few days,i somehow needed that.yes i'm grateful that things are quite alright now but i'm not gonna deny to any of you reading this that i'm still very very hurt,disappointed and angry.okay actually that's an understatement.it's more than that.and it's gonna take me awhile to really heal. have to attend some dumb course in school tomorrow and tuesday urgh.but it's alright,wednesday is the chalet! woo i can't wait (: till then.goodnight. Wednesday, March 04, 2009
let me make things clear. you have no existence in my life anymore. so if i don't smile at you when i see you,or call or text you,you know why.don't come crying to me anymore about your problems.i AM NOT gonna be your listening ear coz i'm done with everything.i'm done with our friendship. BUT i will welcome you with open arms if you choose to change.if you think that you have nothing to loose,that's up to you. but what i know is,God knows the truth.I know the truth and so do other people. so until the day you choose to apologise to me,you mean nothing to me anymore. that's your call. and honestly i don't fucking care what you or your boyfriend thinks of me. because what i know for myself is at least i have some dignity. you can go around telling people,making me look like the bad person here.but like i said,God knows the truth and so do i. i could've dissed you,but i choose not to.because we're all mature adults now.so do whatever that makes you happy i don't care. good luck with your life,you need a whole lot of it. Tuesday, March 03, 2009
as much as i want to get rid of the things i won't start wearing/don't wear anymore,being the lazy ass that i am,procrastination always gets the better of me.so nisa and nadirah,please do give me more time. i'm sorry ): dearest is right.if i was a guy,i think i won't really care about doing romantic things for my girlfriend because it takes too much effort.thank god i'm born a girl then. speaking about efforts,only God knows whether i truly deserved the heart-wrenching,agonizing wrath that struck me three weeks ago like i was given a tight slap.maybe a slap is an understatement. i may not be the best girlfriend,but i try.maybe it's just not good enough for you,i can't comprehend. i find it so tough to let it go.because people don't just say things like that to other people who's been with them for almost two years.i'll forgive and forget it if you've said it once.but it seems like it's not just something that you THINK you say because you're angry.personally,i don't think it's solely because of anger.subconsciously you've been feeling that way all along or else why would you have said such things over and over again in every argument?a million,trillion apologies can never change the fact that you've mentioned them countless of times.yes i need to change my mindset to let it go.but until then,it will still remain in my memory.and i was surprised that you couldn't remember what you've thrown at me verbally.i guess guys will always be guys. so that's my cue to start changing myself for the better.i've my fair share of undesirable moments where according to you,i treat you like some kind of "punching bag" or i think for myself more than i do for you. and yeah i do agree with you that i have a big ego for a girl and i need to work on that. to kickoff the change,i'll stop being dependent on you from now onwards because i've figured that it's killing us both. |